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When I made the commitment to change my habits, weight and life on January 1st, I was scared witless. I had no idea that I would be successful. I'd never had a substantial amount of weight to lose, and the psychological triggers behind my overeating were overwhelming at times. Maybe I would be the human who would defy physics and continue to grow fatter no matter what!
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Anyone who makes that first serious step toward making a change - be it weight loss or some other goal- should be commended for their bravery. It is, after all, a major leap of faith. They have no idea how much work, perseverance, willpower or stubbornness it will take to succeed. They only know that the unknown finally looks better than what they see in the mirror.
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Seven months ago, I avoided full length mirrors at all costs. I'd find myself in a dressing room trying on clothes ONLY when I had outgrown everything in my closet. I'd change as fast as I could, and glance up only to see if the fit would be passable. That feeling has slowly changed over the past few months, but it will take time for my mental body image to catch up with my physical one. I put on about a pound a month for 4 and a half years, and have lost over 35 pounds in the past seven months.
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I had a "use it or lose it" coupon for Old Navy last week. For the first time in over 5 years, I put on a pair of size 8 jeans and stared at myself in wonder. Not only did they fit, they looked damn good. Sophie stared at me and said, "You look HOT, Mom!" In my head, I thought, "I KNOW!"
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It's way too warm to wear those jeans now, but you know what? If I have a bad day, I'll be putting them on and dancing around in front of the mirror. NOT going through the MacDonald's drive thru. Eight may be just a number, but right now, to me, it's a badge of honor. A certificate of amazing achievement. I have many things in my life to be thankful for, and proud of, but this ranks right up there. Anyone who has been there knows exactly how I feel, and anyone who wants to be there, I sincerely wish you all the best. You CAN do it!!
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