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I'm a list-maker. Responsible to a fault. A *get things done* kind of gal. So, when confronted with closing up one chapter of my life and moving on to the next, I face it with making phone calls and filling out forms and lining up packing supplies and movers. These are the things that have to be done, right?
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Ah, but there is so much more to be done that doesn't come in the form of a line item that can be checked off. Things like feeling all the feelings that need to be felt. Working through all of the emotional upheaval that comes with the end of a relationship. Moving forward within a legal system that doesn't always move quickly or justly enough. Trusting others to tend to the details that I cannot. Mothering a little girl who is well aware that big changes are afoot, and helping her find the positive in each day and each opportunity. Helping myself find the positive in each day and each opportunity.
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The treasure in all of this turmoil is the support I am finding from friends and family, near and far. People who take time out of their day to send an "I'm thinking about you" message or card. People who unfailingly send their support in the form of prayers and thoughts. People who are not afraid that divorce is contagious, and who are not afraid to talk to me even when they don't have a clue what to say. Or, as in the case of my parents, people who put their own lives completely on hold to be there for me and Sophie through each step of this process. Yes, *now* kind of sucks, but I am a lucky, lucky girl.